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Forgot to blog about them dreams.
creepy creepy dreams.
not such great ones.
anyway here goes.
thereapos;s a naked party in school. (swear to god i could not make this up if i wanted to)and i was getting in trouble for hooking up with some as yet unidentified guy. And they wanted to arrest me for it. Seriously - not suspend, arrest. So iapos;m running away and theyapos;re chasing me and i have this vague feeling that this has happened before. But not deja vu. It was like shit i dreamed this was going to happen. And then i was all "hey dw this is a dream, iapos;ve dreamed it before and it must be a dream again" so iapos;m like chillen but theyapos;re still chasing me so iapos;m like "shit maybe itapos;s not a dream maybe its forrealzies" so i run. And then i wake up [heh it was a dream - but within a dream, wtf.] in HIS bed. So somewhere deep down iapos;m like what, but then and there iapos;m all yea this makes sense. So iapos;m in his bed in his dorm in college. And i tell him about the dream. Then i get dressed [yea, in his bed, not dressed] and leave to go to the bathroom or tell someone something or idk why i left but i did and it was only for a few minutes. Then i get back - still only a few minutes later - and wanted to get back into bed [his bed -> i wanted to get back in - shocking? i think not..] but much to my chagrin, he was up and dressed because - and hereapos;s the best part - my brother and sister were there. And of course, they were more than a handful, as usual. Itapos;s like babysitting 5 year olds, i swear to god. The way they behave, i still canapos;t believe theyapos;re over 10 years old - theyapos;re fucking 13 and 15 its fucking ridiculous. And theyapos;re messing with his stuff and iapos;m trying to get them to calm down and figure out why and how they got there and where i can take them so theyapos;re out of my hair. And then they find two birds. His birds. He had 2 birds in his dorm. Oh and also two cats. And he starts freaking out because apparently these were animals that had been abused and he didnapos;t want my siblings hurting them. So i herd my brother and sister out and i go to change [yea i had clothing there] and iapos;m in my bra trying to help him organize his shit with the pets but heapos;s all stressed and snapping at me, and upset as i was about that, thereapos;s a knock on the door. So i open the door - still only wearing a bra - and its a girl in a towel. And sheapos;s like "oh." then looks past me and says "movie night?" he starts stumbling and mumbling and iapos;m baffled sitting there looking at this princeton chick who came to his dorm room in a towel for a apos;movie nightapos; and heapos;s embarrassed. So thatapos;s when the truth hit me.
and then i woke up. It was so sad. Its like - hey i havenapos;t thought of the future, but thatapos;s only because atm thereapos;s no present. If he was my bf iapos;d think of the future. But right now the most i can do is hope he will be my bf and iapos;ll god-willing go to college at nyu and weapos;ll be near eachother and that and then i can start thinking of the future. But that dream made the future look glim. Idk whatever i shouldnapos;t be worried about something like that when right now i might just have to get over him and thatapos;s it.
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